well, tumblr, i am officially an experienced sex-haver and lover and my life is really interesting. this is all i can come up with as a life update interesting what we all choose to share on the interspace out of all that we could. but really that’s the gist of the monumental load of things that have been happening to me lately, and im okay with this also i quit my job, i didnt feel valued...
A Complete Reiteration of Canada to the Best of My...
Thursday -driving to canadia -canadian superstore weird milk in a bag -BUYING ALCOHOL -ginger mead drinking -trippy hangs -D&B -casino -hat obtention -got al her fur -barefoot ferriswheel, dick ponds everywhere -sleeping- dad snoring/mom reacting in her sleep, cycle all night Day two -3dolla breakfast ina casino -WALKED TO NEW YORK, kinda sketch -luv u canada -ally and I found...
It feels really good to procrastinate I can’t tell if I’m hungry for food or for something else I wrote a letter today that says things that I’ve been holding in for a long time to a person that is most-significant and I’m going to mail it my life is like a romance novel am I letting myself go? these are the golden years or something ha ha ha intensity ...
you came out of nowhere make me question my feelings on love you love every part of me the smell of my armpits but mostly my mind you don’t even realize how great you are how deep how considerate how beautiful you just keep getting better and better as the layers peel away I’m seeing into you and I like it more than I expected you cleaned my house before you left you...
The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances:...– Carl Jung (via dougmenagh) This is like, scientific wording of my theory on the human soul
8-jellyfish asked: hey babeeee
My alone feels so good, I’ll only have you if you’re sweeter than my solitude.– Warsan Shire (via warsanshire)
The Shins- The Celibate Life One of the top...
http://considerthespectrum.tumblr.com/ my better half more relatable more metal
Sometimes when I get high I’ll notice that my vision will literally become introverted and I can’t think of anything other than how I am being at the time. Like, I’ll become really self-aware and weirdly not in tune with my surroundings, but entirely consumed in my own head. It’s pretty strange. At work today I was still high and in this introverted thing I speak of, and I...
Looking at my tumblr now makes me feel weird. I have grown up so much so fast, and back when I used to write a lot on here I felt like I was mature, but I see how naive I really was. Although I feel old now, I know that when I look back on these moments they will seem immature as well. I have a lot of things I need to get over. They all have to do with the inner workings of my mind. Everything has...
Some things I've noticed
When you’re sad or angry or having any sort of negative feelings toward something, if you look at it literally or think about it, you only look for the bad or the ugly; you’re eyes and mind focus on that which reinforce your perspective. Once you change your mind and allow yourself to see the beauty, you will; things are brighter, more beautiful. Like for example, when I first moved...
This is the most relevant and important thing
Everyone should read this, for it is uncommon knowledge but absolutely critical to understand people in general. Us introverted folk are too misunderstood in America where our society idolizes the extroverted. I have highlighted what is most relevant to me; this whole concept is the core explanation for what was eating away at me all through high school because I thought I was wrong as a person....
Every thought felt as true Or allowed to be accepted as true by your conscious...– Funkadelic, Good Thoughts, Bad Thoughts
A common misconception is that when I’m not talking that I must be shy. No. It’s simply that you are not worthy of my mind. I’m not going to spew my thoughts and observations in all times of my life; if I’m not interested in the topic of conversation or you seem to suck as a person I won’t say anything at all. I also don’t always have something to say; I could...
I CANNOT EMPHASIZE THIS ENOUGH
DON’T FIND IT IN THE MIRROR FIND IT IN YOURSELF REALLY THOUGH really though
Aint that the truth
aint that the truth. my hair totally grows out of my head according to the vibes in which my mind is expending. like, for example mine tonight was perfect. all im gonna say holy poop :)
I really do love the shit out of everything about this place. I really cannot deny that
I Just Realized
That Petaluma doesn’t need to matter as much as I make it so. I romanticize the shit out of it Sure, it’s great and I have a lot of amazing friends and we’ve had some pretty phenomenal times, but I live in Michigan And I’m moving to Ireland for a while when I’m done. And going back to live in Petaluma is not on my life list.
Change your life today
8-jellyfish asked: NO I MEAN, DOES IT EXIST ALREADY!?!
HOLY MOTHER OF SHIT
MEGABUSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS ANYONE CAN GO FROM OAKLAND TO LA FOR 1 FUCKING DOLLAR ONE FUCKING DOLLAR AND NOW I DON’T HAVE TO TAKE THE STUPID TRAIN THAT’S EXPENSIVE AND TAKES FOREVER TO GET TO CHICAGO TO FLY HOME, BECAUSE MEGABUS WILL TAKE ME THERE FOR $14 GOD BLESS MEGABUS
Yay it’s my birthday tomorrow but watch, no one will remember because I’m not on facebook anymore weeeeeeeeeeeeeee shall seeeeeeeeeeeee
I just went back and read all my text posts...
I can see clearly the differences of how I wrote before and then the long break I took from writing during my depression-thingy, and then the shit I wrote after I was like, too fucking deep afterward for a while there I definitely just re-learned a lot of philosophies that I used to self-advocate, and I need to remind myself to step back and calm down my thoughts these days. I feel like I have...
my other page
makes me love myself and also makes me want to delete this blog looky
DOES ANYONE ELSE
see a perfect uterus here
Epic days of epic, Michigan style
holy crap you guys.. so like, the other day Ally and Jordan and I went to Grand Rapids to visit our friend Jimmy, this super awesome punky artist guy and we wanted to drink wine of course, and we got one of his friends Jeremiah and three bottles of wine, and went back to his house to drink them and do crafts. We ended up just making fun of shitty rap music for a while and then decided to show...
Last night at 2am I was awoken by this unexplainable sound that was like a really, really loud humming completely surrounding our area. And I poked my head outside to make sure it was real, and it definitely was happening. And people were outside screaming ‘WHAT THE FUCK’ and then it stopped after five minutes. but I don’t know how long it was going before it woke me
I made a tumblr
to use it as tumblr is supposed to be used and now I don’t do homework considerthespectrum.tumblr.com
fuck fuck fuckfuck
i have more homework than usual and less time because I mega-procrastinated and I don’t even really know what to do and my instructor never replied to my email also my confections chef is a bitch and makes me not want to try in that class and to you, chef, I say a MIGHTY FUCK YOU
It snowed today for the first time this year kinda, and I fully tripped off of it for about 30 solid minutes. It was a very light, soft dusting of snow, but you could really only see it well with a light behind it. And when I was walking to take the trash out I couldn’t stop staring at the illuminated flakes infront of the street lamps. And I was engulfed by layers and layers of snow...
Tonight was quite wonderful,
This night I have felt most myself than I have in a long time. I was more comfortable and relaxed in my mind, which was very relieving and empowering. And holy shit I love Sarah and David so much, and their friend Sean that I just met, we had some fun times, oh man. And David put on George Michael’s Careless Whisper three different times throughout the night. You know that song with the...
I was a Fractal. I felt what it is to be a fractal. And it scared the shit out of me But that was because I didn’t understand it
My life makes sense again
people: you're so quiet, like you don't talk
me: I talk, just not to you
I just feel like writing all the time now. I don’t know if it just coincides with the happiness but I definitely notice a trend here. So much perspective I have gained If I thought I was back to normal before but I had no idea Its like, you think you’re really cool when you’re not high, and you are, but then you realize YOU’RE REALLY FUCKING COOL WHEN YOU’RE...
Reese's pumpkins are perfectly balanced
and are everything I could ever hope they’d be. All though today things started out a bit poopily, I have the rest of this long day to to absolutely anything I could think of. I left my very first lab class of the quarter after a couple hours today because of my head cold, but also because I somehow completely blanked on the fact that I need to have an apron for class and I really am not...
I want to get back to writing about the...
Saturday night I was able to celebrate Halloween; I really wanted to be a wizard, so I got myself a beard and set out to complete the costume. Alas, I was illequipped and had nothing to make robes out of, so I declared that I would save the wizard costume for actual Halloween and just wear either of the two costume dress-thingys I had in my closet. Ally picked me up around 10pm, and informed me of...
sbaigel asked: why do i not know your history with Berzerkely. Enlighten me.
It's about time, ya?
I write now, for this marks a turning point. It makes sense now, why I was uninspired or ill-equipped to write anything before (as it usually does). I have come to terms with my self once again as I tend to do periodically, and now that it is out in the open, I can begin to forgive myself and heal accordingly: as to what exactly I am referring to, this time, I wish not to share completely. There...